Reconnecting

I'm 28 1/2 years old.
It's taken me that long to learn that I am a jealous, possessive person. And not just about my husband. I mean, obviously when he tells me about talking to women at work I get a little pain in my stomach.. but I believe that is normal for any married woman. We SHOULD care that our men spend time with other women when they're not with us.
But I'm also jealous and possessive about my very close friends.
And there's only been 2 in my life that have earned my jealousy.
As silly as it is, I get jealous when they hang out with other women... almost the same kind of pain when my husband does. I know, it's silly... I can't expect them to not have other friends besides me. I shouldn't care that they are hanging out and doing fun things with other women and not me. But it's hard not to.
Silly, I know. Maybe it's a maturity thing... I don't know. And maybe I'll never grow out of it. But I have to learn to deal with it. Like dealing with my bi-polar disorder. I just have to pay attention to my triggers, control to my emotions, and use some techniques to block my bad feelings.
It's especially important because I am reconnecting with the 1 of those 2 women who I haven't spoken to in years.
It would be stupid of me to expect her to not have any close friends, especially since we haven't talked in years. But I also can't help that my heart aches to hear about her spending time with other women.
Idiotic, right?
Yes, I know.

But I'm super glad to be reconnecting anyway. I have really missed her. And missed out on her and her life.
So now I just have to deal with my jealousy and be happy that I am blessed enough to have her back in my life.