a personal question

I was thinking about this last night. I had read a pretty gut wrenching story a few days ago, and it's made me thank God for a lot of the choices I've made as a parent. I'm no saint, however, I've made a LOT of mistakes-especially with my older children. After I started having more children, I realized that many times the older children are similar to laboratory guinea pigs- "let's try this and see if  it works. Nope, doesn't work! OK we won't do that with the next child". It kind of sucks for the older child, but it's all part of the learning process. That whole "we weren't given a manual with our children" thing. When you know better- you do better.

But I'm getting off topic there. All of that concerns the past and what we can't change.
Today's post is sort of about the past, but mostly about the future- and what we CAN change.
So, today I pose to you a question. I'm not asking you to answer it in the comments, I'm not even asking you to answer it out loud. Just ponder it.

As you spend the day interacting with your child or children think about my question. And then let it change what you do. Let it affect some choices. Let it make you a better parent to your child. We could all probably be better parents, right? So, here's my question.

If your child died tomorrow, what would you regret?

early morning ramblings

I've been having hubby wake me up with him the last few mornings... at 5AM.
And I kinda like it :)

I usually like to stay up late (until 2-3AM) working or having my "me" time, and then sleep in until between 8 and 9:30- whenever the kids wake me up.
For a few nights I tried to go to sleep early (like 7-7:30 PM) so I could wake up on my own around 5-6AM.. FAIL. I STILL slept until 9 and I was EXHAUSTED.
So, now I just go to bed with hubby between 10 and 12 and wake up with him at 5, and, while I'm groggy til I have my coffee, I am not exhausted, and manage to make it through the day- and am decently productive. The nights I get more sleep, or sleep in with the kids, I feel like I don't get ANYTHING done. So I think I'm more productive when I wake up early and go to bed at some kind of normal hour. I'm still getting the same amount of hours with the sandman, just at a different time of day. Weird.
Now what to do when he goes back to night shift :/

I just... keep.... LOSING stuff!!! Like right now... where did my hemp fleece go??? arg

One of these days I'm just going to pay someone some insane amount of money to come in and build me some kind of organizational monstrosity so I will stop losing crap. Course, then I'd actually have to put things back where I got them from...... ah... one step at a time ;)

Where did THAT week go?

I find myself asking myself that question a lot here lately.
Seems like I have way more stuff to do than I'll ever have time to get it done.
Many times I feel like I need to whittle down my "to do" list- I really think it would help me. It would take stress off my shoulders, and allow me to make time for the things higher on the priority list (AKA more time for the kids, less time for me *sigh*). I know it sounds selfish... well, I FEEL like it is selfish, to mourn my lost "me" time. But when you have 5 kids under 9, those couple hours of me time through the week are a necessity.
I don't make much money off what I do, but I enjoy it, and that matters more.
I just wish I could figure out a good schedule and routine for my day to day activities. That would help out SO much. But it would have to be one that I can stick to. One that is too strict, I'll never stick to. I know me. I know I can't expect a lot out of myself.
I guess a restructure of my priority list would probably be the place to start.

Do you find that your priority list gets askew occasionally?

I shouldn't be here but I am

Man, oh man, I've been lazy lately.

Procrastinating.

Disorganized.

Come on, 6, get it together!!

I have 763 things on my list of things to do, and I only keep adding to it.

I sure wish I was witty... it might make my blogs more fun.
Or maybe I should try to not blog at 1AM when I'm exhausted.... ya think?

But, at least I got 75% of my craft area cleaned up! How bout that!
And I decided that 2 of the first AIO diapers I ever made will NOT be thrown away- they will be put away for me to laugh at in years to come :)
Actually, they're not that bad, really.  Nicky wore them for quite a while. But I'll probably never use them for 7. I really just don't like AIO diapers. I just don't. They take so long to dry it makes me worry that they're not getting clean enough. And I don't have time to run diapers through the dryer twice for crying out loud.

I just boxed up a large, flat rate box of used CD's for my friend. I had to do some repairs and come up with some soakers... and this is only about half of the ones I have set aside for her! I sure hope she enjoys them. And even if she doesn't, it makes me feel good to help others.

Well... maybe I'll go do some work now.
The congo stocks tomorrow and I need to take pictures of my finished Fuzzies.

Good times.

WAHM Spotlight

I bought a few things from the Peace, Love, Cloth for All congo on Saturday.

http://www.hyenacart.com/peacelovecloth
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One of which was an ADORABLE Apple outfit for 7 from Squid Style. FACEBOOK



It got here today, and as usual, I'm super thrilled with her work.
 It's size 6 months, and is made from a waffle knit- which is a fabric type that I am in love with anyway!

My perdy little boo bear.