Overpopulation

A friend of mine wrote a paper for college a few days ago and shared a paragraph with me. In that paragraph she mentioned the overpopulation of the world. Her main point was talking about the carbon footprint the overpopulation has on the planet, but for some reason that word 'overpopulation' bothered me.

It bothered me because it made me feel guilty.
I feel guilty because I have 5 children.
Now, why should that make me feel guilty? Like I'm doing something wrong for having a big family? And if I'm wrong, I know many many other families who are wrong as well.

I know there are so very, very many children that need homes. So many children would love to live in a house, have a mother and father who love them, have heat when they are cold, have food when they are hungry...

It angers me that I feel guilty.
It angers me that I WANTED to adopt, WE wanted to adopt. We wanted to adopt special needs children. Children who have physical or mental disorders and needed more compassion, love, understanding, and care than a 'typical' child.  https://apps.chfs.ky.gov/snap/ THESE children.
But we didn't qualify. We didn't have a large enough household income. My husband couldn't stop getting laid off long enough. We weren't married long enough. We didn't have enough money saved up to 'buy' a child. Hubby couldn't get off work for the required classes.

It angers me that we WANTED to foster. We wanted to open our home to children who were ripped from theirs. We wanted to show them that they could be loved, that life wasn't over... that there was a chance for them.
But we didn't qualify. We didn't qualify because our children are not vaccinated. According to the women in charge of the class I attended to become licensed to foster, my children not being vaccinated put the children who were in the custody of the state at risk. I'm still trying to wrap my head around that.

So here I have this huge heart, a yearning to love children who need more than anything to just BE loved.
A home suitable for children, and a household income to provide for children. Yet the only way for me to have children is to have them myself. No household requirements. No income requirements. No classes to take. Nobody to please. Just my husband and I, making babies the good ole fashioned way.

And that makes me feel guilty, which makes me feel angry.

Why are the rules so strict for people who want to grow our family with children who came from other birth mothers, yet there were no standards for that birth mother-after all, that's unconstitutional. I'm certainly not saying there should be rules or requirements for pregnancy. I'm certainly not saying there should be a limit to how many children we have. I'm just saying if overpopulation is such an issue, then they should make giving those children homes easier.