Pregnancy- Week 29

OK So since I JUST went to the OB for the first time last week, I feel like I can post this, as I have a more accurate idea of where I'm at in my pregnancy.
Oh, and to my PCP- I was right and you were wrong! I was right and you were wrong! Neener- neener!

Back towards the end of August is when I first took my pregnancy tests. I stopped breastfeeding Tommy towards the end of June- June 26th I believe was the last day. The end of the breastfeeding was the beginning of the menstrual cycle. So I knew it was around the end of June beginning of July that I conceived. That guy measured my stomach, why? I have no idea, I was in there for a sinus infection. And tried to tell me I didn't get pregnant until August, so my calculations were off by around 4 weeks. Sorry, dude, I just don't think it's possible.
NEVERTHELESS
Here I am, somewhere in week 29. I have my ultrasound next Friday that will give us an even more accurate due date- not that it matters. I've been induced 3 times and only once has it ever been near my due date, LOL.
USUALLY I do not find out the sex of the baby. My oldest is a girl, and the other 3 are boys. My girl was the only one I found out with, but I was 18 and, like many other things as a young mother, did stuff that I just "thought" you did. And I gotta say- I HATE the whole 'group expectation' crap. The deciding factor for some mothers whether they find out the sex in the U/S or not is "if I don't I won't get any gifts" or "people won't know what to get me" or some other excuse similar. That's the group expectation. A group of people want to buy you something for your child, so they expect you to tell them what color crap to buy- blue or pink. In my opinion, there's plenty enough gender neutral stuff out there that you can easily get away with the majority of your shopping without having any idea what sex your baby is. And there is a gift exchange policy at MOST stores that sell things for babies. My question is- for the moms who find out the sex during the U/S- what if the technician is wrong? So you have your U/S at 18ish weeks, and go along the rest of the 22 weeks of pregnancy assuming this technician was right, so you tell everyone it's a girl. You have a baby shower, you get so much pink stuff you think you might puke cotton candy. D-day arrives, and you labor and contract, labor and contract, then push this little miracle out of your body.... only to find out it has a penis. WHOOPS!

For moms that just enjoy knowing, more power to you. I place no judgement, please don't read me that way. It was kind of nice knowing that I was having a girl. It was easier to picture a daughter instead of just a baby. I just hate people that really do want to be surprised, but feel obligated to find out because of the group expectation.
It's been amazingly fun not knowing! There's just nothing more exciting than going through all that labor and pain, to conclude it with the doctor pulling this little being out of your body only to say "It's a boy!" because he knew you didn't know!  It's hard to think back 8 years, but I'm sure the doctor then said "It's a girl!" when she was born, but the excitement wasn't the same- I knew that doc, thanks for catching her :) (Or in my case, sucking her out with a vacuum!)

So, I have one more week to decide if I'm going to let the technician tell me what sex this little bouncy wiggly worm is. My first and MAIN reason for wanting the U/S is just to know whether there's one or two in there! LOL Oh how I would love twins... twin little girls. I'm one of 'those' moms who would totally and completely duplicate their wardrobes! BUT I'm not holding my breath. My luck it would be twins... and they'd both be male.
Don't read me like I'd be unappreciative if it is a he. I can see it now, "so many women can't have babies and you're whining because you didn't get the sex you want." Give me a break. And let me tell you something - we TRIED to foster. We WANTED to foster and adopt. We wanted to open our home to children in need and show them love and compassion. We were told NO. Why? Because we don't immunize OUR children, therefore, in the state's idiotic logic, our children pose a threat to theirs, because ours could be sick. In MY logic, if THEIR children are immunized, then shouldn't they be protected? MY children are the ones at risk here. But no, that's not the way they see it. Ah well.
I can honestly say that if it is a boy, there will be some disappointment. But until you've had 2 or 3 of the same sex all in a row, there's just no way you can understand that. YES, I will love my child. Yes, I will be happy no matter what. The sex will NOT change how I parent or treat that child. It would just be nice to have another baby girl. Although, I am a bit nervous if it is a girl.. I mean, it's been 5 years since I changed a little girl's diaper on a regular basis. The cleaning process is a bit different than a little boy. But, we'll wipe that butt when we get there.

Part of me wants to know the sex before hand. For a few reasons.
#1) This will be the second baby I've cloth diapered from birth. I'd like to know if I can make any girly fluff. I'm much more crafty nowadays than I was when my first 2 were little, so I have a lot of infant girl patterns I'd LOVE to put to use on my child. I bought them when DD was a baby, but worked full time, so never had time to sew, unfortunately. So now that I do sew pretty frequently, I'd like to know if I can make these things for my own daughter.
#2) This IS our last baby. Hubby is getting a vasectomy. We have 5 children, and the only way for me to get my tubes tied is to either have a c-section, so they'll do them after they remove the baby, or deliver vaginally, heal for 6 weeks, then go back in and get the tubal, only to have to heal again for another 4. Sorry.. I'll have 5 kids here soon, ages 0, 2, 4, 6, 8...I have no time to be laying around 'healing'.
#3) If it IS a boy, it will give me time to cope with the disappointment. I know all the sad feelings will go away as soon as I get ahold of the little guy, but I am bipolar, therefore I ALWAYS have PPD- always. This time is already going to be worse, because I KNOW it's our last baby. So I don't want to put any more sad thoughts in the mix by having to deal with the disappointment after he gets here. If I can just deal with it for 8 weeks before he comes, I'll be OK. Then it'll just be "our last baby" and "we won't get to TRY for another girl" that I'll have to deal with. Having another boy might not be SO bad if I knew there was a chance to try again. But, something to look forward to is when this last baby is older, then we can look into fostering once again. So I know it will all just work out in the end.